Just like that....

So,im going to my village tomorrow morning..(leaving at 5 in the morning in this excruciating cold!! God save me!!)for the first time,mind you...and that is why I'm kinda looking forward to the experience... More about the trip once I'm back.Till then,here's what I'v been doing for quite sometime now...I'v been thinking about something I read a long time ago...and I'd like it if you tell me what you guys think about it as well... Here goes:

"Why is it that I have to climb a thousand mountain to get to you....and all you've got to do is.....smile.... to get to me??"


Think 'bout it...
Till then,cheerios!!!

Roadies..err..BEEEEEP Down Under

It’s been nearly two lazy weeks at home. This IS life….man!! I wake up at 10 in the morning,have breakfast,go online,chat with friends or go out with mom,come back,have lunch,play badminton or carrom in the evening with dad,go online again,have dinner,go off to sleep at about 11 in the night…and have a perfect sleep with weird and whacky dreams…ahh-yes-how could I forget WATCHING TV….!!Now,watching tv for me basically constitutes either listening to the news at regular intervals,or watching the match(now that India finally seems to be playing well..*touch-wood*)or watching all those old episodes of ‘Who’s the boss?’&’The wonder years’ or simply ‘F.R.I.E.N.D.S’(can never grow tired of that J)or ahem…..putting on MTV for some music….. But all I end up doing is…sit and listen to the screaming,torture and mind blowing nonsense courtesy MTV Hero Honda Roadies….(part 4..5…6…..whatever….!!)auditions…because that is what MTV airs day in and day out these days.

Its got so out of hand that day before yesterday..I actually dreamt that I was a part of the “Roadies -Hell Down Under” auditions…yes…I know why I saw this dream-because I’d spent that entire evening watching the bald guy torture hapless guys and girls… In fact this time they have TWO of ‘em….(the bald guys I mean!)..Its double the idioticity,double the abuses being thrown left and right at your faces amidst the BEEP…BEEP...BEEPS……(God!! Someone should tell them that inspite of their BEEPS..we can understand each and every f*****g oops!! “BEEEEEP” abuse they scream out !!!!)and double the shouting…..*phew* Yeah,so, I dreamt I was sitting on that chair (all covered up in a white sheet for reasons I absolutely cannot fathom…!!),infront of me..the two bald twins(Rajiv and Ramesh…..Ramesh and Raghu…..errr……Laurel and Hardy…whatever..!!)asking me what was the “most adventurous thing” I had done in my life(a question they ask everyone in every single episode..and still never get satisfied by any answer!!)..to which my answer- “Dissecting two mosquitoes and determining their age,sex and nationality,and cremating them suitably..with my best friend when I was in standard 4”.. GASP!!!!!!!!! WHAT!!!! What an utterly,horribly,horrendously,stupidly idiotic answer was that…!!??!! Hehehe!!!

Now,I don’t wanna blame the two “studs” completely…I mean,I can totally understand their frustration on being confronted by total weirdos,with absolutely whacky thoughts… (and there are quite a lot of such cartoons..!!) A good majority of the contestants are just fake and put on all the attitude in the world,pretend to be cool and hep and happening…or are really dumb without any knowedge on any topic whatsoever..(except perhaps the count of how many boyfriends or girlfriends they’v had or have!!) And the competition for this dumbness grows every year… I mean this year there was actually a contestant who said that she has “3 steedy boyfriends presently…”and she loved “all of theem” and all 3 know about the “aather two”…(Bengali accent if you did’nt get it by now!!)..and that she “oaance jumped from a balcony” (or something)…not to commit suicide but because “haar friend had done”black magic” on haar”….man!!What an interesting tale…deserves an Oscar nomination…or even better –it can be made into a film by Ram Gopal Verma starring our very own roadies contestant,and others,with some music by Himesh Reshhamiya(did I get the spelling right..!!??!!)And(hang on,thers more!) when asked to put back the white cloth cladden chair to its place after a round of dancing she went “uff…sooo…heeevy..baaba…..” gulp..!! STANDING OVATION!!

I can go on and on writing about the funny and weird things people actually do to get noticed..(like the guy who actually removed the glasses he had on,put on sunglasses he had tucked away safely in his pocket for his time of glory,and started with”dil kya chahta he,tumhe kya me bataoo…Rock ON!!!.....in perfect gujju accent…..PRAISE THE LORD!! Or the guy who claimed outside that he could jack Raghu and Rajeev’s case and abuse them..and ended up saying”abe taklu..” to the two man-eaters inside…hmm..very courageous!!) but it might never end. Now I know its not an easy task to face those two goons who can demoralize anybody almost very very effectively…and I donot take away any credit from all those “fearless” contestants at all…But what the hell…some of them DO tend to be hilarious….. :D :D:D

As for the outcome of my dream..you might ask…Did I get selected or not?? Well,after that answer I gave them…. It was all…..

BEEEP…..BEEEEP…….BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP…. :-)

SUFFOCATING...............

Meredith Gray(Gray’s anatomy) once said “We’r adults now…when did that happen,and how do we make it stop?” And when she did say this…it got me thinking…….


I’m going to turn 21 this January.I’m an adult now….But being one has started taking a toll on me… Yes Yes..I know you might say that 21 is too young to be “taking a toll” on somebody…but that IS what is happening.I don’t think I’m myself anymore..not even a shadow of what I used to be like..And if this is what I’m growing up to be-well,then..GOD!this ain’t what I wanted to become….

What’s wrong?-people ask me…. To the outside world,my life seems near about perfect-I mean,here I am-a second year engineering student,doing respectably well in studies,some 14oo kilometers away from home,surviving out there in the fiercely competitive world of college.. Both my parents are earning,and I being an only child get almost every of my sane demands fulfilled by them,because they want to make sure that absolutely nothing comes in the way of my success... And the three of us are apparently “very very happy” with our lives.. So,isn’t that nearly “perfect”??

This is precisely what my problem is-Most of us have made a make believe world of our own wherein all of us are pretending-yes..”pretending” is the word..to be happy.. And how did we have this sudden brainwave of being pretentious??Umm..I don’t know…But I think,it came to us as an important lesson while we were “becoming adults”…

I do know that sometimes -that one stupid joke cracked,or one smile on your face (even though you know how much you’d rather sit and think about what might be wrong in your life) might work wonders for the people who really matter..I know the feeling you get when you see your near and dear ones happy because of one small gesture of yours..is well,as they say..”priceless”.But how long does this happiness last?How long can you put up with this façade?What happens when the reality dawns upon us?Then there are issues to be dealt with,problems to be solved,relationships to be taken care of..and a plethora of other things as well..And somehow..while taking care of so many things,that one smile-however fake it might have been just seems to disappear.. This…is what adulthood does..or atleast has done to me..

Additional responsibilities,a new world to explore,weird and at the same time life changing experiences,”real” people,fake ones as well,jealousy,deceit,competition,survival…..-Being a grown up means all this and sooo much more..It has taught me a lot of things,things that will help me in the long run..and things that I never wanted to learn while I was a child…


Sometimes,all I wanna do is just speak out what exactly I’m feeling….but I cant- for fear of hurting my loved ones…or just beat the hell out of people who have played with my sentiments or affected my family or friends in any way(I know this sounds really kiddish!!)..but,obviously,I can’t…..or just ask people to shut up!!..not possible either..and..sometimes I just wanna cry out loud and bring out all those feelings ,but cant…just cant….

Instead all I do..is laugh,put up a brave front,hope and pray that the next day will be better…and “survive”….
Yes..each day is a survival….

It leaves me feeling desperately helpless……

But shouldn’t I be given a pat on my back? After all I’m behaving soo maturely...learning from my experiences…..and all that bulls**t…..
Hell yeah..I am….suffocating….surviving…and playing my part well……

HOMEWARD BOUND...........

I finally..FINALLY finished with my exams yesterday...Rotten...Horrid...Stupid...F****** exams...... 6 papers-3 were good...1 was awful....and the other just about ok...

But I dont really wanna talk about it coz I'm leaving for home in an hour....(yipee!!! ):) :)..... Just can't wait to go back home and face the chilling winter there coz here the sun is still shining BRIGHT...seems as though we are in the middle of Sahara desert.Anyways...I can go on and on and on..cribbing about college now....but I'm way too happy to do that now.... My bags are all packed,the tickets safely tucked away in my wallet,loads of movies in my laptop..and off course the company of good friends to make sure that I have an amazing journey..(hopefully!!)..

So,I might be off the bloggging circuit for a few days....I'll try posting something soon..coz there is something I have planned for someone really special... ;)..

Anyways,till he next time..Happy winter season.....and HAPPY BLOGGING!!!

EXAMS

I started with my end sem exams day before yesterday...2 papers-both sucked big time.....
I'm feeling super frustrated.... Have given up any hope of getting a respectable gpa this time....
Another 4 papers to go.......and I have absolutely nothing to say anymore... :( :( :(
*&^%*&^/%&&*%$**

How we first met....

Do you remember how we first met?
Its one of the sweetest memories I possess
I look back and see us both-two strangers
Meeting for the first time and I wonder
Who would have guessed then how our friendship would grow
And become as binding as only we both know
Whether tempest blows ,or gale, or storm
To know I have” you” to lean my head on
Whether strife you encounter,or battle,or war
I’m here for you.. I’l be there when you call
To the wish I have for you on this day
Is for you and I to remain always this way
And maybe when years and more have gone
And I with wrinkled cheeks am forlon,
Perhaps with hopes all dashed to the ground
Perhaps-dreams-all shattered-shall surround,
And all around me-everywhere,
Will be the desolate earth,empty n bare-
The thought of “you” will still make me smile..
And I’ll stop all who pass & say”wait a while”
For though my eyes are weak and old
And my mind fable-or so I’m told
There remains one thing I can never forget
For I still remember how we first met….

Naa...this aint written by me(I cannot write poetry AT ALL....!) I'd come across this particular piece when I was in school and was "in love" for the first time!!(just infatuation mind you..but that was "love" for me back then,and maybe even now!lol...!)..and ever since its been really close to my heart...Every time I read it,I actually get goosebumps all over..infact I think I'v read it sooo many times that I know it by heart now....

*sigh*(if only somebody had written it for me!!!)........ :-)

"AUGUST RUSH"

"There's music all around us....All you gotta do....is listen..."

This was how the movie "August Rush" started.....and ended...and got me thinking... This very dialogue delivered by the boy "August" just said it all...

I just saw the movie "August Rush" (after a lot of persuasion from one of my classmates)...and I can't tell you how emotionally unreal yet amazingky beautiful the experience of watching it was..

The movie left me with an overwhelming feeling of happiness,love,hope,trust and most importantly belief.I t made me realize how important it is to never give up-on hoping and believing in something,no matter how much the world warns you against it.

The story starts off with a young boy telling us that he can "hear" music in everything..Its about how this boy-a child prodigy,excelling in music,conjures up magic in the form of musical notes by just "listening"....listening to all that is around him....

The story was simple-refreshingly new...the actors-could'nt have possibly been better...the music-well..powerful,unreal and yet beautiful and a pleasure to listen to...and the main protagonist-Evan Taylor aka "August Rush" played by Freddie Highmore-a performance of a lifetime from him..he is well...BRILLIANT....!

Watching August Rush was one hell of an experience..I absolutely loved the movie and recommend it to each of you who read my blog..Please do watch it....And I'm pretty sure that by the end of it all of you will have that undying hope in you and even you will believe that...

"Nothing bad can happen to you..Just have a lil faith..."

College-Knowledge..(hey!that rhymes..!!)

Things I wish I'd known about college:
1.)That it didn't matter how late my first class is...i'd sleep through it anyways....

2.)That it has taken me barely 18 months to change so much and not realize it...

3.)That its fun for college kids to throw paper planes in class as well!!

4.)That the teachers watch has to be fast at the beginning of the class...and late by the time the class ends... ;)

5.)That if i was smart in school....SO WHAT!?!
6.)That I can waste the entire day before the exam and manage night outs on consecutive nights to compensate for that...

7.)That I can know everything and get miserable marks...
8.)That others can know nothing and still ace a test...

9.)That "sunday" is a figment of the world's imagination..!!

10.)That when someone "borrows" anything from you..they mean they want to keep it forever ;)
11.)That "friends" are what makes this place worthwhile.. :) :)

Well...its time for my end sem exams now...so will be a lil busy with that....so,till the time i'm totally tortured by the exams....keep smiling.. :) :)

My "Bestest" Friend

I'v been sitting on my laptop for the past 30 minutes now,with the "create post" option in front of me..waiting to write down a new post...but all I have been doing instead is messaging my best friend who just left manipal after a 5 day trip from bangalore an hour ago.... And,therefore,I finally decided to write this blog post about her.....So,baby,this ones for you.. :)

Me and Disha have been best friends for 17 years now...yes 17 long years...phew...seems like a lot huh?? I remember we first became friends in kindergarten..running around the premises,looking at the birds and animals in the mini zoo at school.... :) And one fine day she went away...to another school..I was heartbroken but managed to survive for one entire year there making new friends...never even thinking that we would ever meet again... But as fate would have it,I changed school the next year..and my welcome to class on the first day turned out to be an amazing surprise when I saw Disha walking up to me in P.T class(yes,i remember all the details!!)and asking me "tum mayuri ho na?"..hehehe!! And so,our friendship started all over again....

And is continuing till now....We'v been the closest of friends for so long now..and I'm so glad I have her by my side :)

Both of us have had the most awesome times together in school and outside...Have had very few fights(*touchwood*)..Played stupid pranks-things like sitting inside the car..shouting out "PAPA","UNCLE"..to any random person crossing us and then hiding beneath the seat!! or catching hold of two mosquitoes,slapping them dead,and then supposedly dissecting them,and deciphering their age,sex,gender...and even cremating them according to their caste..!!!(twas damn funny!!!)..Man! We'v fallen in and out of love at nearly the same time...Shared a huge crush on Hrithik Roshan together(she finally giving in to my eternal love for him though..!!)..Even shared the pains of not clearing the competitive exams in the first attempt and dropping for a year.......:(

And what not...

*sigh* how I miss the good old times we shared......

Well,its been nearly a year now since we'v both settled down in our respectives colleges..Life has changed a lot...I now meet her only once a year..but we are still the same.... :)

I know i can still call her up at any odd hour of the day(or night!!) and discuss my problems or just listen to her speak about what all is going on in her life...She has been with me through thick and thin,listening to me patiently...advising me on the huge number of problems i keep on having ;)...blabbering random shit about random people..and so much more... :)

And thats why I was soooo glad when she decided to come down to manipal for diwali..Ihad an amazing time with her these 5days..we caught up on all the lost times,chatting day in and day out...just like old times.. :) She left today and all this while has been messaging from the bus asking me to take care and stay good..(so very typical of her..!!)..

I had been feeling a little low ever since she left,and so I decided to dedicate this blogpost to her.. :)

So,..here goes.....

Thank you for being there for me always...I really need your friendship..Its something I treasure the most...Thank you for being my FRIEND....

Already missing you. :) Can't wait to see you in december again..... :)

Girl,you completely ROCK!! Way to go...... loads of love :) :) :)

"KARVA-CHAUTH"

I just witnessed the funniest sight ever in my hostel life...(specifically "hostel life"..because otherwise my hostel is full of really "intellectually refined" 1st year students..studying most of the time ,realizing the fact that scoring good marks in the 1st year is a piece of cake...and..umm..in the 2nd year..well...dont even ask!!)..
Anyways,so..me and my roommate had just finished dinner and we were both at the wash basin washing our hands,looking at the mirror and discussing about one of our classmates' orkut profile and his "about me"(which,btw,is hilarious as well..!!Seems like all funny things are coming to light today..!!)...Across our corridor I could see a goup of 7-8 girls standing and talking at the top of their voices...We felt a tad bit irritated because their voices were loud enough to reach upto our room and I had finally succeeded in bringing myself to start studying for the impending exams from next thursday...So,we graciously ignored them and came back to the room.I had just started writing a blog post on a completely different topic..when all hell broke lose.. we suddenly heard the same group of girls going "ohhhhhhooooo....."(in typical girly style!!)...and then came the "grand finale"-
"I LOVE YOU ABHISHEK!!!"
I rushed out of the room thinking that some lucky "Abhishek" fellow had been proposed by one of our group of girls.....and guess what I instead came across.......???
Lo behold! Right in front of my eyes...I saw one of my hostel junior dolled up in a Red saree...with full make-up on....bangles in the hand...and God only knows what else...standing in the corridor,in conversation with her "Abhishek" on the phone..and.......(here comes the best part.....!!!......*drumroll*......)breaking her KARVA-CHAUTH FAST..!!! Annddd...I'm not done yet....one of her friends holding a "thaali" with all "teeka" n stuff(really dont know wat all you are supposed to keep in that "thaali"!)ready for her.....all the while our main protagonist for the hour,blushing and going beet root red on the phone..(guess her Abhishek must be telling her that he could picture her in a saree even on the phone,and complementing her on how pretty she must be looking..or maybe telling her that even he had kept a fast for her...hehehe!! :) : ) )
I couldnot stop laughing and immediately called my roommate....and ever since the both of us have called up everybody we know and described to them vividly this hilarious event....!!!
This was seriously good fun..I desperately needed it amidst all the exam tension and the other bull shit in life..
God bless the girl for providing cheer in our monotonous lives...I hope and pray to God she has many such Karva chauths in her life...May she and Abhishek have a "happily-ever-after life"..!!
(Ohhh....Manipal amazes me every single day...!!!!!)
Anyways..have my exams from next thursday...gotta go study....:( :(

Till then.....here's wishing you all a very HAPPY KARVA-CHAUTH..!!

???Feeling Crappy....

Just came back after a movie...ROCK ON! to be more precise..(yes,yes..i know,i know...i watched it AGAIN...!!!!!!)Anyways,it was being screened at our college quadrangle as a part of our post tech-fest events....Yesterday was DARK KNIGHT...And tomorrow is the closing ceremony of the fest,so more about that later...
I'm writing this blog right now because of two main reasons:
a)I realized it's been long since I wrote anything;
b)I have been feeling really crappy from the past one week and just needed to vent out all the frustration that's been nagging me all this while...I had a major argument with my closest friends here last week..and things have been bad ever since....I dont know if the problem is because of the fact that off late the three of us(me and my two buddies)have been spending almost all the time we can get together...and we'r running out of things to say....or maybe because somewhere down the line there is something wrong with me that I'm actually thinking of all such crap...
Anyways,this post is leading me nowhere...have a few things to figure out..and a few more things to put right....Hope the week ends with everything sorted out....and hope I get back my peace of mind,which at this point of time is completely evading me.....
And also hope that my next post will be a more cheerful one with an explanation of all that has gone wrong and has to be put right...soon....
Till then...
Adios.....

Yet another TAG....

So,I'v been tagged again...this time by Shashank..(who,by the way,finally finished his tags after a lot of pestering and explanations..!!) I kinda like this tag..'coz I like answering questions(actually I felt like I was filling a slam book after so long..!!)Here go the rules:
RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people..

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
"A*****e....F**k off...,Get lost you moron!!" :) :) (nothing better than venting out your anger then and there itself :P )

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
Umm...make sure that my parents are freakin' proud of me and of whatever I'v achieved in life...

3. Whose butt would you like to 11. Where do you see yourself in 10 years time?kick?
My analog electronic circuits teacher....!! (actually,given a chance,I'd like to destroy her completely..and have no regrets whatsoever..!)

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Spend it..basically on books,gadgets,a world tour..And invest the rest of it...

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Ahem...ahem.....(people who know me will know the answer to this one;)...But anyways,I think I will..coz my best friend will know me through n through..and nothing's better than having your best mate as your soul mate :) :)

6. Which is more blessed: loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone you love....thats the best thing that can happen to anyone :)

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
For as long as I will love him...lol!!! (But I think I can wait for a freakin' long time..in eternal hope....)

8. If the person you secretly like is attached, what will you do?
Realize that we were just not meant to be..and that someone out there is waiting for me to come along...:) :)

9. If you could root for one social cause, what would it be?
I dont know if this comes under "social cause" or not but I'd definately want to work for the senior citizens and make sure that they do not have to be dependent on anyone for leading a happy and secure life...

10. What takes you down the fastest?
Anything that hurts my ego...

11. Where do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Somewhere doing a good job in my workfield and also as a successful wife and mother... :)

12. What's your fear?
Not being able to meet my parents' expectations...

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Fun loving,an amazing friend..and totally adorable.... :) :)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
Single and rich....

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Think of all the things I have to get done by the end of the day....

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick?
The one who can love me back with the same intensity as I love him.... ;)

17. Would you give all in a relationship?
Totally..but only when I'm absolutely convinced that the relationship is worth it...

18. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he has
done?
Forgive-yeah I guess..eventually. Forget-maybe...dont know...

19. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?
Single... "Singles rock"!! (as of now...!!!)

20. List of 3 people to tag:
1.) Allen
2.)Peter
3.)Arka

Numb.......

“Why did I let this happen….to me….to us……to what we had….?”
This was all she thought….

Her mind drifted back to the happier times spent together…


Those long phone calls….The endless hours spent talking about anything and everything under the sun…Those silly fights they’d had….Those sweet little surprises…The way they looked at each other….


Those times….

When hearing one name made her days forever…When everything inside her was beyond the measure of words…When there was perfection in all his imperfections…..
When she spoke without thinking….When he knew without hearing…..



She looks into the mirror now,and finds a stranger staring back at her..Someone she doesn’t recognize anymore...someone she knew a long time ago….

Why did it happen?-that’s all she asks…herself….
There’s no one else to ask….Noone to answer….
Does she regret it? Yes….she does…

She regrets falling for him…so badly… Regrets giving him all she had...Regrets crying for him for hours on end…Regrets letting herself undergo so much pain…Regrets expecting...
Regrets loving him…..With all she had….

She can’t go back…Moving ahead is proving to be equally difficult…She’s stuck…in the midst of memories and pain….wanting to let go…and fly far far away….
But the tears have dried,the feelings all drained off ,her heart all broken…

All that is around is numbness…..



Disclaimer-The above piece is completely fictitious and bears no resemblance to any person living or dead or ME…!!!

NOTHINGNESS........

From the past few days..I’v being doing…well….nothing…….


…..at all……
I mean my daily routine can be put down in basically the following steps:

1)Getting up in the morning at 6.30 a.m ,15 minutes before the alarm starts ringing(*DAMN!*)
2)Taking half an hour to brush my teeth and basically thinking about something to look forward to in the day…
3)Waking up my roommate-the entire process of starting to wake her up and she actually sitting up on the bed with the sweetest expression on her face taking another 15 minutes!
4)Having breakfast…(ahh..food…. J)
5)Sitting through 6 lectures “every” day…actually paying attention in some..trying to during the others…finishing polos and kitkats in the rest…and drawing stupid –funny drawings at the back of the notebook during the really crappy ones..
6)Coming back from college at 4.00 p.m(with no stamina to even walk back to the room)…
7)Sitting and chatting with friends,trying to connect the internet for hours,making maggi with roommates(*big grin*),seriously attempting to study for the dreaded exams coming up next week…AND failing miserably to do so…..
8)Finally going off to sleep hoping that the next day will be a tad more interesting….



And Finally…this Saturday turned out to be a Life-Saver… A close friend’s Birthday…. Surprise gifst for him(stuff that were got right in front of him..without he realizing anything.. ;)…An amazing treat at night with all of us close friends hanging out together after a reeeealy long time…. Having noodles with chopsticks for the first time:)… Clicking 100 photos in every stupidest-silliest pose possible :)… Making two of our friends dance in the middle of the road to ‘beedi’ at 11.00 in the night :)… Nearly stamping onto a snake while walking back after a heavy dinner………
And realizing that “FRIENDS”……they make everything seem so worthwhile… :) :) :)

Anyways…here’s a pic of my closest friends here(just love u guys….:)




And..yeah..The cutest pic that we took that day..with the birthday boy in the centre…(ya,ya…I know "lucky"....hehe!!!)
So,I dedicate this blog to all my friends that make life so enjoyable and fun-filled.. and to the birthday boy-Shashank- A very happy birthday to you..Thanks for bringing back all the old times again….
CHEERS!!!

Soul-Searching

"The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sometimes close can be too close, but sometimes that invasion of personal space can be exactly what you need."-Grey's Anatomy

Even though I love this quote...... sometimes it makes me sit down and think....

Do we really need somebody.. at the end of the day...to sit beside us...to "invade our personal space"...????

Will I be fine even if I have nobody to talk to at the end of the day...no one to share my feelings with...???Will I be a different person then....??

Still trying to figure out the answer to this one.....

Tagged-FINALLY!!

So..the TAGGO-MANIA(thats what one of my friend calls it..!!) has finally hit me...and not one but two tags at a time..Hence,here I set out to conquest this untrodden path..(trying to get a little "shakespear-ish"..lol..)

Here goes my first tag..its from Tinni(Trinaa for all you guys..):

1. What have you realized recently?

ANS)That Engineering is not all that easy...

2. Have you given your first kiss away?

ANS)Ummm....ummm...waat! NOPES!

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take?

ANS)Dude..! I DONT have 11 blog buddies!!!

4. Where is the place you want to go the most?

ANS)I think it will be a close call between Switzerland and anywhere in Australia....

5. If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?

ANS)Just listen to one "YES,ME TOO"....!! ;)...KEEP GUESSING... ;)

6. Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?

ANS)Yup..totally..(but for that it has got to rain first,which doesnt seem much likely looking at the way things are going..!!)

7. What are you afraid of losing the most now?

ANS)I think I'v already lost it.....

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

ANS)"SPEND IT"!!!!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

ANS)Hehe! I'v already done that...and it turned out to be disastrous!!

10. List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you-

ANS)Tinni.....totally adorable,an awesome writer and a kickass friend!! :)

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

ANS)Understanding(sounds clich'ed but true),Craziness;) ;) ....and he should be a die hard Romantic....!!

12. What type of people do you hate the most?

ANS)Show offs and Hypocrites...I absolutely loathe show off's....

13. What is the one thing you can't live without?

ANS)Mom n Dad's phone calls..... :)

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point them out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

ANS)Not all people can say anything about me....only a few privileged ones have the honour of correcting me...

15. 404…question not found!!!

16. Are you a shop-a-holic or not?

ANS)Not really....I'm more of a Food-a-holic!!

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you-

ANS)WHACKO!!

18. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?

ANS)It would have to be my jealous nature......(and I'm trying....)

19. What’s the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?

ANS)Seen-my 1st internals marks(my highest is 11 on 20...eeks!!)

20. Would you rather have love but no money or money but no love?

ANS)Ummm....Actually I'd rather have "Loads" of Love and my "Love "will see to it that we have enough money to survive....!!(sweet na!!)

And now for my second tag....this one is again from Tinni...here go the rules....

1. The winner may put the logo on his/her blog.

2. Put a link to the person you received the award from.

3. Nominate 5 blogs.

4. Put links to the blogs.

5. Leave a message for your nominees.

So here is the logo…and the link

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_yT6JrHqd3qo/SMCzOzDvp9I/AAAAAAAAAF4/iuks0Uk2r0w/s1600-h/award.jpg

Thanx Tinni...!!!
And (now finally my turn...!) I tag...

HP-she is one heck of a blogger..and like tinni...a complete whacko.!!..We do crazy things together and i absolutely love it!..Way to go Heer...!!

Shashank-he is one of my closest friends here...Needs to write more posts and shake off the laziness..lol!! Thanx for just being there.. :)

John-Needs to bring out all the amazing things he thinks about...And also vent out all that is there inside him.... :)

Allen-another amazing blogger,keeps amazing me with his fantastic work and kinda inspires me to match up to his standards..(tho' i fail miserably..!)Keep up the good work buddy!!

Blog vibes(Peter)-just love his work..I can completely identify with what he writes...Write on....!!

So all you five bloggers have been awarded AND tagged for these two tags..

And in the course of writing this entry...I realized that I enjoyed these tags...Looking forward to more of them...So,guys(Heer,Tinni..and everyone else..help me out with more!!)

Also....I finally booked tickets to come back home in december after screwing up my end sem exams..!! Another 2 months and 28 days to go....cant wait to get back...Till then, Ciao!! and keep Tagging! ;)

ROCK ON!!!!

Just saw ROCK ON!....and all i can say is that it totally ROCKED!! :) Farhan Akhtar was..well..bloody brilliant..!Cant imagine how talented the guy is-he can sing,dance,write dialouges,act.......-did i leave out anything?Purab at his comic best...Arjun Rampal lookin like a greek-god,very subtle and spot on in emoting every little feeling...Luke Kenny was good as well...

Aaaaand coming to the songs...... Mindblowingly brilliant..!!! It was such a whiff of fresh air to listen to Indian rock-good music mind you.... evey song was different..and damn good...!!

The concerts were awsome as well.....actually im on such a high after watching it.. i can go on and on about how much i 'absofuckinglutely' loved the movie!! Didnt want it to end.......

Anyways,i think it will take me some time to get this hangover off me....till then you guys ROCK ON!!

(And those who havent watched it till now...pleeeease watch it in a theatre...its one of those movies that you can get the feel off only on 70mm......trust me...and ya..DO WATCH IT!!)

Black and White

When I born...I Black
When I grow up..I Black
When I go in sun..I Black
When I cold..I Black
When I sick..I Black
When I scared..I Black
And when I die..I still Black......

And you White fella,
When you born..you PINK
When you grow up..you WHITE
When you go in sun..you RED
When you cold..you BLUE
When you sick..you GREEN
When you scared..you YELLOW
And when you die..you GRAY.....

And you calling me "COLOURED"



I read this in the editorial column of The Hindustan Times,a year ago..Its been penned down by Mr.Vipin Bugsay.....Hats off to the man for describing the uselessness and futility of the so called 'racism' existing everywhere today,especially against us Asians....
So,this one goes out to all those people in the world who think themselves to be of a much superior race than us becuse of their colour...guys...we care a DAMN to what you think.............!!

EXPLANATIONS..APOLOGIES...BACK TO BUSINESS..

Ohkkk…so you guys must be wondering as to where the hell did I disappear all these days..Well..to justify my long absence from the blogging world..I was busy ‘settling’ back to college life after a glorious summer vacation back home…(ohh,how I miss waking up at 11 in the morning..lazing in the afternoons..eating the most amazng food mom used to make..and catching up with all old pals….*sigh*)
Yep,college did start quite a long time back..(21st July to be precise..)so…where was I all this while….??Do I start from the exhaustion of shifting hostels twice..the pains of going to the college office for payment of fees and noting the time-table..the anticipation of starting subjects related to my branch(finally..)or the irritation of waiting for a month to renew my internet connection…(phew!long list-or –what...hope I did not miss out any other atrocity inflicted by the college on us…)
Believe me…the worst thing that I had to go through right in the beginning was changing my hostel twice…And more so when me and my roommate(god bless her for keeping up with me for 1whole year..we’r still going strong..!!)had unpacked all our stuff and arranged the room we would be calling ‘home’ for the next 3years..lets call this one as room 1.Now,room 1 was nice-as in-it was a little crammier than our earlier room(coming to my room for last year-well,my 1st ‘home away from home’-it was near about perfect..**sigh**).Anyways like I said,room no 1 was ok..but the hostel we were moving into was ..well…BAD--narrow corridors,one tubelight for the three seater we were staying in,and surrounded by seniors who thought the world of themselves…I can go on n on n on..(although I must say that we had a near about perfect view of the basketball court where..umm..’cute guys’ sweated it out in the evenings..hehe!! )So,just when we had resigned to fate,thinking that god wanted us to witness game after game every evening:)..just when we had put together the room into someplace worth living..we got the news that we had been shifted to another hostel …Now that called for a celebration because our new ‘home’(this one is room no 2 for you)was near about perfect..but the pains of “repacking” all the “unpacked” stuff is beyond words…Tragic…Tiring….*phew*
Nevertheless,having finally shifted to room no 2 and settlled down to 2nd year..(ohh yes..i’m a sophomore now…feel so grown up..lol!!) all I did was wait eagerly for the internet connection to get renewed..

And I waited..waited..waited..and waited….

One by one all my friends got their internet connection..and me—I was having some weird,stupid problem with my laptop which even the internet guys could not fix…Can’t tell you how frustrating it was to watch everybody enjoy the’ simple pleasures’ of life(yes—internet for us does constitute simple pleasures..!!)and me not being able to do the same…So,finally after running to the internet people for 2 whole weeks,they finally concluded that all I had to do was get my laptop reformatted and I would get my internet connection immediately….
If only they had figured this out a little earlier…..because now it was time for my 1st sessional exams(that brings me back to the fact that we manipal’ites do study..!!)..anyways,how badly I screwed them up is another topic altogether..but I finally finished with my xams yesterday…and tomorrow I will be getting my laptop fixed….(tomorrow--because yesterday evening was spent watching Ranbir Kapoor romancing,apologizing to and romancing three hot chicks—another story yet again…!)..
So..that was what I have been going through all this while…My apologies for staying off the blogging circuit for so long..I missed it a lot.. I’m back now..to doing what I think I do best.”THINKING ABOUT THE WAYS OF LIFE(the title of my blog,if u didn’t get it by now..;)…cheers…..!!

Aaand My Name Means.........

Ok..i got this one from a blog i was reading yesterday seemed like fun,so i tried it...It gives me a vivid and extensive detail of what my name means....(i stand corrected..actually ,it gives a description of what the "hidden" meaning of my name is....)u guys,check it out too,jst go to http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/

Well,here goes....
What Mayuri Means :
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

P.s-dont ask me what a "Type A " personality means...coz,frankly,i was soo happy on knowing that my name has such amazing hidden meanings.i dint bother to find out... ;-)

LOVE-SICK......ME............

So…have you guys been in love….??stupid question!!!-im sure you have..i mean who has’nt….But more importantly,how many of you have loved somebody and not been loved back….Anyways,all of you guys out there(who read my blogs obviously!!),today..here..this very moment..i announce that I’M IN LOVE…..yes,yes…now that it’s out in the open..i would like to share with you all about this “beautiful feeling” I’m going through and let you know how heart-broken I have been at the same time….


I think it was the first time i saw him…that…I knew he was “the one”…It was love-at-first-sight for me.I was madly in love with him..Everything he did had me ogling over him…His eyes—ohhh..those eyes..i could spend my entire life just lookin into them..His voice—the deep baritone,man! How I wish I could have his voice playing on the radio all day long….His amazing ability to sing—to hear him sing “kabhi kabhi mere dil me” would have me smiling that love-sick smile for days…His exceptional dancing skills..hmmm..how I wish I could just shake a leg or two with him just once…..And before I knew it,I had starting dreaming about the both of us having the most romantic times together and leading a life “happily-ever-after”………sigh……..


How I wish it could have stayed that way….




Then came that ill-fated day…… I came to know that he had married the love of his life….




I was distraught….The pain I was going through would not let me stay in peace..I cried for several nights..all the while wondering to myself whether it would have made a difference had I told him about my feelings…..It probably would’nt have….And I also almost certainly believed that I could never love again……


Or rather…I could not love anybody else in life…!!!


Yes..it’s him…the guy I’m head-over-heels-in-love-with..it’s still him..and it will always be him..

I love you HRITHIK ROSHAN…truly…madly..deeply…..

MYTH-BUSTER

Ohkk…to start off where I finished last,I think I said that in my next blog I will explain to the world that we manipal’ites(a term coined by i-don’t-know-who..!) do study………….*long pause*
Do we?????
Hell yeah,we do!!!!
So,let me begin this daunting task of making it very clear to everybody that we,the students of manipal are taught…umm…decently well…I mean I don’t claim that we have the best faculty ever(except I think the mechanical engineering faculty,some would argue),but our teachers are..well..like teachers all over the world..Some are really good-you know,the kind you can actually go up to anytime,speak some nonsense and still find him patiently explaining to you that all that you just told him was nothing but crap…. Then again,some so bad that you wish you are born an illiterate in your next life rather than be taught by such weird characters..and the rest ,well,they’re just there(actually,I’m running out of words to describe..”TEACHERS”!!!..)
College for us DOES mean studies..yeah,there are loads of other things to do apart from studyin(let me not venture into that..!!)but then,I think it’s the same in every college..But no!the entire world seems to think that students in manipal are a bunch of useless idiots doin everythin else apart from studying..Well,well…ask us!! I mean I constitute what is called the mediocre students group-you know,students like me are hanging somewhere in the centre of the academic ladder,not at at the bottom..but certainly not at the top either..we are “just there”..!!And what do I conclude when we see these “useless idiots” working their a****s off throughout the year and at the end of it getting simply outstanding marks…that yeah,people in manipal..do study….And its also true that manipal is the only place where iv seen a students mastering the art of studying like crazy,getting amazing marks..AND partying like crazy again…and I seriously admire these people…
So,that was my justification of the myth of “all play and no work in manipal” for you people..But I realize now,that only a handful of my friends and their friends are going to read this…so I guess,people won’t change what they think…I’ll have to find other ways....(oh,I so wish Mr. Bacchan would have written this blog…!!!!!)

Back at home..BORED!

I am bored…bored,bored,bored….never imagined I would miss college so much.I mean,yeah even though I’m pampered like anything at home(you know,mom sitting beside me every night,asking me what I would like to eat the next day..dad coming home early,ready for a game of carrom whenever I tell him that I’m bored..aunts and uncles calling up to check whether I’v grown thin or not!!!and of course,the entire colony turning up one by one at home,treating me like I am some kind of a celebrity out from a crappy reality T.V show..”beta,how is the food there?”,”whom did you return with,beta?”and the most dreaded question of all-“beta,do they teach you properly in manipal?”…After all I am a “manipalite” now-everyone around has the same misconception about Manipal,not a single “shareef” person studies there..except off course yours truly(me!!)…
Anyways,clearing the wrong concepts of the masses about manipal(YES! PEOPLE,WE ARE TAUGHT DECENTLY WELL..AND WE DO STUDY!!)in my next entry..coming back to where I was, I AM BORED.It’s been 15days since I came home for my summer holidays,and I’m missing college like anything.GOD!what a relief it would be if I could sit out on the pavements for long hours in the evenings or just hang out at the campus stores for endless hours..sigh!
But as they say,home is where your heart is….and in the course of writing this piece,I suddenly realize that as much as I miss life back in manipal,I LOVE the pampering!I love the fact that I am treated like a princess(by my parents off course!)..and I love meeting up with old friends and just chit-chatting the whole day without bothering to do anything on my own..!! As of now,Life is good..and I have no reason to complain at all..(except for the fact,perhaps,that my mom is hell bent on making me eat so much that I atleast gain 10 kilos.. ;-)….

LIFE AS WE KNOW IT

Sometimes,just when you feel that things have been going right..there comes,one instance,one incident,one anecdote quoted by someone who might never know what effect it has on you,that leaves you feeling helpless and desolate..Your heart and your mind seem to be playing games with you with your heart refusing to let go and your mind desperate to break free.The world seems to be your greatest enemy..people you love the most seem to put you in the biggest dilemma.
A thousand advices…reasons…and questions…You are expected to provide all the explanations,all the answers.
How do you do that you are so unsure of everything yourself? Who is right,what is the best thing to do..your heart or your mind-which one should you listen to…and in trying to answer all these questions,more often than not you end up being the biggest loser in life..
Does your future matter more than your present? Is it justified that you compromise with your present,so that your future is secure? And how can you be so certain that your future will be secure?
Who are you trying to please in the long run..your family,your friends,the person you love the most..or Yourself? A million questions..a million speculations..and no answers at all…
That’s life at its best!!!
You feel trapped,maybe you are tired of putting up a smiling face for the world when all you want to do is cry your heart out..You are tired of pleasing everyone,tired of walking with the world even when you know that they are miserably wrong..
Do you take the initiative and be a “rebel”, or do you simply continue walking with the crowd-the ultimate choice is yours..
One decision you take might be a turning point for everyone or it might be “just another decision someone took”…
Life asks you all such questions,puts you in all such situations..and waits..waits for you to chose…the final decision is all yours…