Sunday, September 28, 2008

Numb.......

“Why did I let this happen….to me….to us……to what we had….?”
This was all she thought….

Her mind drifted back to the happier times spent together…


Those long phone calls….The endless hours spent talking about anything and everything under the sun…Those silly fights they’d had….Those sweet little surprises…The way they looked at each other….


Those times….

When hearing one name made her days forever…When everything inside her was beyond the measure of words…When there was perfection in all his imperfections…..
When she spoke without thinking….When he knew without hearing…..



She looks into the mirror now,and finds a stranger staring back at her..Someone she doesn’t recognize anymore...someone she knew a long time ago….

Why did it happen?-that’s all she asks…herself….
There’s no one else to ask….Noone to answer….
Does she regret it? Yes….she does…

She regrets falling for him…so badly… Regrets giving him all she had...Regrets crying for him for hours on end…Regrets letting herself undergo so much pain…Regrets expecting...
Regrets loving him…..With all she had….

She can’t go back…Moving ahead is proving to be equally difficult…She’s stuck…in the midst of memories and pain….wanting to let go…and fly far far away….
But the tears have dried,the feelings all drained off ,her heart all broken…

All that is around is numbness…..



Disclaimer-The above piece is completely fictitious and bears no resemblance to any person living or dead or ME…!!!

16 comments:

HP said...

:O

you've expressed it so beautifully....

"...someone she knew a long time ago…" --- waah..!!

Mayuri said...

@hp-thanx yaar :) :) m all smiles...!!

peter said...

i guess tht was an inspiration from somewhere ??

and i doubt the disclaimer LOL :D

nicely written !

Mayuri said...

@peter-inspired frm ppl around me.and their lives...nothin els...and thanx..!!

Trinaa said...

omg maauri!!!!!!!! u r a storehouse of talent yaar!! beautifully written... totally loved it!

Mayuri said...

@tinni-thanx yar.. :) :) nothin as compared to u tho'...

Shashank Shekhar said...

i agree 2 peter..even i doubt the disclaimer...lol..!!

Mayuri said...

@shashank-nice comment thanku....!!

Allen's Grey Matter Inc. © 200...whatever !! said...

the disclaimer claims too much dear..!!! hehe .. ;)

loved reading it by the way.>!! seriously sweet..

Unknown said...

"Why sso ssserious?"
- The Joker, Dark Knight

Mayuri said...

@allen-hmm.....thanx yar..and trust me..the disclaimer is absolutely true..
@sumit-umm...serious..well..sometimes life demands seriousness,dnt u think so??

Cinderella said...

YOur postscript cracked me up !

Happened to me once, I wrote smth on breaking up and everyone thought I am going thru n my comment box was spmmed with "are you ok - its gonna be fine - what happened" crap !!

Liked your narration ! And good its fictious.

Mayuri said...

@cinderella-hehe!i kno..im getin kinda the same feedback...and people THIS IS TOTALLY FICTITIOUS..!!
newez,thnx fr commenting.. :)

Shashank Shekhar said...

u hav been tagged

vemuri said...

good one.... some things i cud really relate myself but anyways.... good use of words..

by the way as some one else said kinda not sure about the disclaimer

Mayuri said...

@vemuri-thanx :)
and as fr the disclaimer part....its tru..trst me!