Just like that....

So,im going to my village tomorrow morning..(leaving at 5 in the morning in this excruciating cold!! God save me!!)for the first time,mind you...and that is why I'm kinda looking forward to the experience... More about the trip once I'm back.Till then,here's what I'v been doing for quite sometime now...I'v been thinking about something I read a long time ago...and I'd like it if you tell me what you guys think about it as well... Here goes:

"Why is it that I have to climb a thousand mountain to get to you....and all you've got to do is.....smile.... to get to me??"


Think 'bout it...
Till then,cheerios!!!

Roadies..err..BEEEEEP Down Under

It’s been nearly two lazy weeks at home. This IS life….man!! I wake up at 10 in the morning,have breakfast,go online,chat with friends or go out with mom,come back,have lunch,play badminton or carrom in the evening with dad,go online again,have dinner,go off to sleep at about 11 in the night…and have a perfect sleep with weird and whacky dreams…ahh-yes-how could I forget WATCHING TV….!!Now,watching tv for me basically constitutes either listening to the news at regular intervals,or watching the match(now that India finally seems to be playing well..*touch-wood*)or watching all those old episodes of ‘Who’s the boss?’&’The wonder years’ or simply ‘F.R.I.E.N.D.S’(can never grow tired of that J)or ahem…..putting on MTV for some music….. But all I end up doing is…sit and listen to the screaming,torture and mind blowing nonsense courtesy MTV Hero Honda Roadies….(part 4..5…6…..whatever….!!)auditions…because that is what MTV airs day in and day out these days.

Its got so out of hand that day before yesterday..I actually dreamt that I was a part of the “Roadies -Hell Down Under” auditions…yes…I know why I saw this dream-because I’d spent that entire evening watching the bald guy torture hapless guys and girls… In fact this time they have TWO of ‘em….(the bald guys I mean!)..Its double the idioticity,double the abuses being thrown left and right at your faces amidst the BEEP…BEEP...BEEPS……(God!! Someone should tell them that inspite of their BEEPS..we can understand each and every f*****g oops!! “BEEEEEP” abuse they scream out !!!!)and double the shouting…..*phew* Yeah,so, I dreamt I was sitting on that chair (all covered up in a white sheet for reasons I absolutely cannot fathom…!!),infront of me..the two bald twins(Rajiv and Ramesh…..Ramesh and Raghu…..errr……Laurel and Hardy…whatever..!!)asking me what was the “most adventurous thing” I had done in my life(a question they ask everyone in every single episode..and still never get satisfied by any answer!!)..to which my answer- “Dissecting two mosquitoes and determining their age,sex and nationality,and cremating them suitably..with my best friend when I was in standard 4”.. GASP!!!!!!!!! WHAT!!!! What an utterly,horribly,horrendously,stupidly idiotic answer was that…!!??!! Hehehe!!!

Now,I don’t wanna blame the two “studs” completely…I mean,I can totally understand their frustration on being confronted by total weirdos,with absolutely whacky thoughts… (and there are quite a lot of such cartoons..!!) A good majority of the contestants are just fake and put on all the attitude in the world,pretend to be cool and hep and happening…or are really dumb without any knowedge on any topic whatsoever..(except perhaps the count of how many boyfriends or girlfriends they’v had or have!!) And the competition for this dumbness grows every year… I mean this year there was actually a contestant who said that she has “3 steedy boyfriends presently…”and she loved “all of theem” and all 3 know about the “aather two”…(Bengali accent if you did’nt get it by now!!)..and that she “oaance jumped from a balcony” (or something)…not to commit suicide but because “haar friend had done”black magic” on haar”….man!!What an interesting tale…deserves an Oscar nomination…or even better –it can be made into a film by Ram Gopal Verma starring our very own roadies contestant,and others,with some music by Himesh Reshhamiya(did I get the spelling right..!!??!!)And(hang on,thers more!) when asked to put back the white cloth cladden chair to its place after a round of dancing she went “uff…sooo…heeevy..baaba…..” gulp..!! STANDING OVATION!!

I can go on and on writing about the funny and weird things people actually do to get noticed..(like the guy who actually removed the glasses he had on,put on sunglasses he had tucked away safely in his pocket for his time of glory,and started with”dil kya chahta he,tumhe kya me bataoo…Rock ON!!!.....in perfect gujju accent…..PRAISE THE LORD!! Or the guy who claimed outside that he could jack Raghu and Rajeev’s case and abuse them..and ended up saying”abe taklu..” to the two man-eaters inside…hmm..very courageous!!) but it might never end. Now I know its not an easy task to face those two goons who can demoralize anybody almost very very effectively…and I donot take away any credit from all those “fearless” contestants at all…But what the hell…some of them DO tend to be hilarious….. :D :D:D

As for the outcome of my dream..you might ask…Did I get selected or not?? Well,after that answer I gave them…. It was all…..

BEEEP…..BEEEEP…….BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP…. :-)

SUFFOCATING...............

Meredith Gray(Gray’s anatomy) once said “We’r adults now…when did that happen,and how do we make it stop?” And when she did say this…it got me thinking…….


I’m going to turn 21 this January.I’m an adult now….But being one has started taking a toll on me… Yes Yes..I know you might say that 21 is too young to be “taking a toll” on somebody…but that IS what is happening.I don’t think I’m myself anymore..not even a shadow of what I used to be like..And if this is what I’m growing up to be-well,then..GOD!this ain’t what I wanted to become….

What’s wrong?-people ask me…. To the outside world,my life seems near about perfect-I mean,here I am-a second year engineering student,doing respectably well in studies,some 14oo kilometers away from home,surviving out there in the fiercely competitive world of college.. Both my parents are earning,and I being an only child get almost every of my sane demands fulfilled by them,because they want to make sure that absolutely nothing comes in the way of my success... And the three of us are apparently “very very happy” with our lives.. So,isn’t that nearly “perfect”??

This is precisely what my problem is-Most of us have made a make believe world of our own wherein all of us are pretending-yes..”pretending” is the word..to be happy.. And how did we have this sudden brainwave of being pretentious??Umm..I don’t know…But I think,it came to us as an important lesson while we were “becoming adults”…

I do know that sometimes -that one stupid joke cracked,or one smile on your face (even though you know how much you’d rather sit and think about what might be wrong in your life) might work wonders for the people who really matter..I know the feeling you get when you see your near and dear ones happy because of one small gesture of yours..is well,as they say..”priceless”.But how long does this happiness last?How long can you put up with this façade?What happens when the reality dawns upon us?Then there are issues to be dealt with,problems to be solved,relationships to be taken care of..and a plethora of other things as well..And somehow..while taking care of so many things,that one smile-however fake it might have been just seems to disappear.. This…is what adulthood does..or atleast has done to me..

Additional responsibilities,a new world to explore,weird and at the same time life changing experiences,”real” people,fake ones as well,jealousy,deceit,competition,survival…..-Being a grown up means all this and sooo much more..It has taught me a lot of things,things that will help me in the long run..and things that I never wanted to learn while I was a child…


Sometimes,all I wanna do is just speak out what exactly I’m feeling….but I cant- for fear of hurting my loved ones…or just beat the hell out of people who have played with my sentiments or affected my family or friends in any way(I know this sounds really kiddish!!)..but,obviously,I can’t…..or just ask people to shut up!!..not possible either..and..sometimes I just wanna cry out loud and bring out all those feelings ,but cant…just cant….

Instead all I do..is laugh,put up a brave front,hope and pray that the next day will be better…and “survive”….
Yes..each day is a survival….

It leaves me feeling desperately helpless……

But shouldn’t I be given a pat on my back? After all I’m behaving soo maturely...learning from my experiences…..and all that bulls**t…..
Hell yeah..I am….suffocating….surviving…and playing my part well……

HOMEWARD BOUND...........

I finally..FINALLY finished with my exams yesterday...Rotten...Horrid...Stupid...F****** exams...... 6 papers-3 were good...1 was awful....and the other just about ok...

But I dont really wanna talk about it coz I'm leaving for home in an hour....(yipee!!! ):) :)..... Just can't wait to go back home and face the chilling winter there coz here the sun is still shining BRIGHT...seems as though we are in the middle of Sahara desert.Anyways...I can go on and on and on..cribbing about college now....but I'm way too happy to do that now.... My bags are all packed,the tickets safely tucked away in my wallet,loads of movies in my laptop..and off course the company of good friends to make sure that I have an amazing journey..(hopefully!!)..

So,I might be off the bloggging circuit for a few days....I'll try posting something soon..coz there is something I have planned for someone really special... ;)..

Anyways,till he next time..Happy winter season.....and HAPPY BLOGGING!!!