Numb.......

“Why did I let this happen….to me….to us……to what we had….?”
This was all she thought….

Her mind drifted back to the happier times spent together…


Those long phone calls….The endless hours spent talking about anything and everything under the sun…Those silly fights they’d had….Those sweet little surprises…The way they looked at each other….


Those times….

When hearing one name made her days forever…When everything inside her was beyond the measure of words…When there was perfection in all his imperfections…..
When she spoke without thinking….When he knew without hearing…..



She looks into the mirror now,and finds a stranger staring back at her..Someone she doesn’t recognize anymore...someone she knew a long time ago….

Why did it happen?-that’s all she asks…herself….
There’s no one else to ask….Noone to answer….
Does she regret it? Yes….she does…

She regrets falling for him…so badly… Regrets giving him all she had...Regrets crying for him for hours on end…Regrets letting herself undergo so much pain…Regrets expecting...
Regrets loving him…..With all she had….

She can’t go back…Moving ahead is proving to be equally difficult…She’s stuck…in the midst of memories and pain….wanting to let go…and fly far far away….
But the tears have dried,the feelings all drained off ,her heart all broken…

All that is around is numbness…..



Disclaimer-The above piece is completely fictitious and bears no resemblance to any person living or dead or ME…!!!

NOTHINGNESS........

From the past few days..I’v being doing…well….nothing…….


…..at all……
I mean my daily routine can be put down in basically the following steps:

1)Getting up in the morning at 6.30 a.m ,15 minutes before the alarm starts ringing(*DAMN!*)
2)Taking half an hour to brush my teeth and basically thinking about something to look forward to in the day…
3)Waking up my roommate-the entire process of starting to wake her up and she actually sitting up on the bed with the sweetest expression on her face taking another 15 minutes!
4)Having breakfast…(ahh..food…. J)
5)Sitting through 6 lectures “every” day…actually paying attention in some..trying to during the others…finishing polos and kitkats in the rest…and drawing stupid –funny drawings at the back of the notebook during the really crappy ones..
6)Coming back from college at 4.00 p.m(with no stamina to even walk back to the room)…
7)Sitting and chatting with friends,trying to connect the internet for hours,making maggi with roommates(*big grin*),seriously attempting to study for the dreaded exams coming up next week…AND failing miserably to do so…..
8)Finally going off to sleep hoping that the next day will be a tad more interesting….



And Finally…this Saturday turned out to be a Life-Saver… A close friend’s Birthday…. Surprise gifst for him(stuff that were got right in front of him..without he realizing anything.. ;)…An amazing treat at night with all of us close friends hanging out together after a reeeealy long time…. Having noodles with chopsticks for the first time:)… Clicking 100 photos in every stupidest-silliest pose possible :)… Making two of our friends dance in the middle of the road to ‘beedi’ at 11.00 in the night :)… Nearly stamping onto a snake while walking back after a heavy dinner………
And realizing that “FRIENDS”……they make everything seem so worthwhile… :) :) :)

Anyways…here’s a pic of my closest friends here(just love u guys….:)




And..yeah..The cutest pic that we took that day..with the birthday boy in the centre…(ya,ya…I know "lucky"....hehe!!!)
So,I dedicate this blog to all my friends that make life so enjoyable and fun-filled.. and to the birthday boy-Shashank- A very happy birthday to you..Thanks for bringing back all the old times again….
CHEERS!!!

Soul-Searching

"The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sometimes close can be too close, but sometimes that invasion of personal space can be exactly what you need."-Grey's Anatomy

Even though I love this quote...... sometimes it makes me sit down and think....

Do we really need somebody.. at the end of the day...to sit beside us...to "invade our personal space"...????

Will I be fine even if I have nobody to talk to at the end of the day...no one to share my feelings with...???Will I be a different person then....??

Still trying to figure out the answer to this one.....

Tagged-FINALLY!!

So..the TAGGO-MANIA(thats what one of my friend calls it..!!) has finally hit me...and not one but two tags at a time..Hence,here I set out to conquest this untrodden path..(trying to get a little "shakespear-ish"..lol..)

Here goes my first tag..its from Tinni(Trinaa for all you guys..):

1. What have you realized recently?

ANS)That Engineering is not all that easy...

2. Have you given your first kiss away?

ANS)Ummm....ummm...waat! NOPES!

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take?

ANS)Dude..! I DONT have 11 blog buddies!!!

4. Where is the place you want to go the most?

ANS)I think it will be a close call between Switzerland and anywhere in Australia....

5. If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?

ANS)Just listen to one "YES,ME TOO"....!! ;)...KEEP GUESSING... ;)

6. Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?

ANS)Yup..totally..(but for that it has got to rain first,which doesnt seem much likely looking at the way things are going..!!)

7. What are you afraid of losing the most now?

ANS)I think I'v already lost it.....

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

ANS)"SPEND IT"!!!!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

ANS)Hehe! I'v already done that...and it turned out to be disastrous!!

10. List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you-

ANS)Tinni.....totally adorable,an awesome writer and a kickass friend!! :)

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

ANS)Understanding(sounds clich'ed but true),Craziness;) ;) ....and he should be a die hard Romantic....!!

12. What type of people do you hate the most?

ANS)Show offs and Hypocrites...I absolutely loathe show off's....

13. What is the one thing you can't live without?

ANS)Mom n Dad's phone calls..... :)

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point them out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

ANS)Not all people can say anything about me....only a few privileged ones have the honour of correcting me...

15. 404…question not found!!!

16. Are you a shop-a-holic or not?

ANS)Not really....I'm more of a Food-a-holic!!

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you-

ANS)WHACKO!!

18. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?

ANS)It would have to be my jealous nature......(and I'm trying....)

19. What’s the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?

ANS)Seen-my 1st internals marks(my highest is 11 on 20...eeks!!)

20. Would you rather have love but no money or money but no love?

ANS)Ummm....Actually I'd rather have "Loads" of Love and my "Love "will see to it that we have enough money to survive....!!(sweet na!!)

And now for my second tag....this one is again from Tinni...here go the rules....

1. The winner may put the logo on his/her blog.

2. Put a link to the person you received the award from.

3. Nominate 5 blogs.

4. Put links to the blogs.

5. Leave a message for your nominees.

So here is the logo…and the link

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_yT6JrHqd3qo/SMCzOzDvp9I/AAAAAAAAAF4/iuks0Uk2r0w/s1600-h/award.jpg

Thanx Tinni...!!!
And (now finally my turn...!) I tag...

HP-she is one heck of a blogger..and like tinni...a complete whacko.!!..We do crazy things together and i absolutely love it!..Way to go Heer...!!

Shashank-he is one of my closest friends here...Needs to write more posts and shake off the laziness..lol!! Thanx for just being there.. :)

John-Needs to bring out all the amazing things he thinks about...And also vent out all that is there inside him.... :)

Allen-another amazing blogger,keeps amazing me with his fantastic work and kinda inspires me to match up to his standards..(tho' i fail miserably..!)Keep up the good work buddy!!

Blog vibes(Peter)-just love his work..I can completely identify with what he writes...Write on....!!

So all you five bloggers have been awarded AND tagged for these two tags..

And in the course of writing this entry...I realized that I enjoyed these tags...Looking forward to more of them...So,guys(Heer,Tinni..and everyone else..help me out with more!!)

Also....I finally booked tickets to come back home in december after screwing up my end sem exams..!! Another 2 months and 28 days to go....cant wait to get back...Till then, Ciao!! and keep Tagging! ;)

ROCK ON!!!!

Just saw ROCK ON!....and all i can say is that it totally ROCKED!! :) Farhan Akhtar was..well..bloody brilliant..!Cant imagine how talented the guy is-he can sing,dance,write dialouges,act.......-did i leave out anything?Purab at his comic best...Arjun Rampal lookin like a greek-god,very subtle and spot on in emoting every little feeling...Luke Kenny was good as well...

Aaaaand coming to the songs...... Mindblowingly brilliant..!!! It was such a whiff of fresh air to listen to Indian rock-good music mind you.... evey song was different..and damn good...!!

The concerts were awsome as well.....actually im on such a high after watching it.. i can go on and on about how much i 'absofuckinglutely' loved the movie!! Didnt want it to end.......

Anyways,i think it will take me some time to get this hangover off me....till then you guys ROCK ON!!

(And those who havent watched it till now...pleeeease watch it in a theatre...its one of those movies that you can get the feel off only on 70mm......trust me...and ya..DO WATCH IT!!)